Walking a line between panic and prepared.

A quick note to remind you, check out yesterday's post and ask Jesse and I anything you would like to know! I will post answers sometime this weekend! There are 54 people following this blog, I know ya'll have a few questions ;)

And for today's post. It's a little heavy today. My heart is heavy today, and I'm trying to let go of things I can't control and just trust that God will take care of us. It's hard.

I don't usually post political things on here. In fact, I think the last political thing I posted was about the presidential election in 2008. I could be wrong though.

I use this blog as an outlet though. This is what's going on in our life right now.

I am sure everyone knows about the potential government shutdown.

If this happens, most people will be affected. How is it going to affect me?

I thought we were safe from the bad economy everyone has faced the last few years. My husband is in the military for crying out loud. How much more job security could you want right? Wrong I guess.

No one has really come out with a clear cut answer as to how this is going to affect military employees.

From what we have been told, Jesse will only be paid through April 8th when his paycheck comes in on the 15th. (We get paid twice a month. The 1st and the 15th) He will have to continue going to work and will "eventually" be paid for his work when they reach an agreement about the budget. Anyone in the military knows that what "eventually" means. Ugh! We have bills to pay.(Just a little perspective. Half our paycheck wont even cover our bills for this pay period) Oh and food to buy to feed our kid. And gas to buy, since Jesse will still have to go to work. It is possible that our grocery store on base will close. "Town" is a 40 minute drive with traffic. Add more gas to the budget since we will have to drive there to buy our (way too expensive) groceries.

Our leave will also be canceled if the shutdown coincides with it. We haven't been home to see our families since August. Eight months since I have been back to my hometown. I realize a lot of military families go a lot longer, but, this will be our last trip home before Jesse get's out of the military. He wants to save all his leave from here on out so he has a month of terminal leave and can use it to find a job. *sigh* We also want to share Jaxon's first birthday with our families.

A lot of people have it a lot worse. I know some folks have been unemployed for up to a year.

I am frustrated that our government has let it get to his point. It's frustrating that my husband, who has EARNED this leave, might be denied vacation because lawmakers can't get along. It's frustrating to me that the people who can't get along will continue to get their paychecks on time. It's frustrating to me that I have friends who have husbands in Iraq and Afghanistan, due home, and their returns will be delayed. Not to mention those still fighting in the war (whether you agree with it or not) will not be getting paid! Their families will be left here in the states to fend for themselves. To find ways to pay the bills and take care of their kids.

I don't understand how Congress thinks it's okay to screw with people's lives like this. I'm frustrated, and trying to walk the line between panic and prepared.

It's hard.

Because posts without pictures are boring, here is our sweet little guy riding in his new stroller. The sun was out for the last couple of days here in North Dakota, and we took advantage of it!